this week i decided to stay off social media. it’s some social media blackout thing. today is the third day, and i have over 100 notifications on my social media folder. who knows how many i really have, because sometimes im notified of them. i know i spend way more time on social media than i need to, and seeing that number in just over two days, there’s no telling how many hours i spend just clicking on notifications that pop up throughout the day well, just facebook really. ill use snapchat or Instagram for a few days, then not look at it for a month. though i do have a Twitter, i never use it because im old and i don’t get it, i just have it for my periscope, which im usually on about once a week for an hour. im usually part of the inspiring recovery scope train, my slot is for 10 minutes, the whole thing runs for an hour so i usually watch it.
i got the idea from a friend who is doing it also. i thought “oh i could easily do that” especially since i haven’t been to into fb lately. i asked a few questions since i had been committed to my periscope slot. i ended up googling the thing, because I was told periscope, and even messenger were off limits. it didn’t make sense, because texting was still ok, and that’s basically what messenger is. tv is not off limits, which is basically what periscope is. it said that is your professional work involves social media you can use it without penalty (oooh they come get ya!) but you must draw the line between professional use and personal use. though im not a professional, one hour for the periscope wouldn’t hurt. besides, i don’t watch television, except twice a year. lol. i binge watch OITNB in june, and i watch american horror story. which i am LOVING btw…any other ahs fans?! let’s talk!!
anyway. i posted that i was going to be off fb for a week, if i don’t post for a few days i start having people message me asking if im OK (this usually happens when i get sucked into the sims 3, which happens about every 4-6 months for about two weeks…there’s a pattern there lol). i have to have messenger because that’s how i communicate with my priestess group, and this week is the time to plan out training, and for scheduling my sunday scope. but, i don’t have to use the actual fb app for that, i have the app just for messages.
i was asking my friend how hers was going, and sent her a screenshot of the insane amount of notifications. she said she deleted all her social media apps so she wouldn’t be tempted to use them. i got to to thinking about it, since deleting them never crossed my mind. i haven’t been tempted to check them. the first day i caught myself click the social media folder, totally out of habit. i keep all the social media apps in one folder, so when i click it, it doesn’t actually open any social media. that grabbed my attention. i do this so much, without even thinking about it or realize what i am doing, i just do it out of habit. BIG RED SIGN.
the other day, i hit NINE MONTHS SOBER YALL!!! nine months i have not had a drink that contained alcohol. no wine, no vodka, no whatever was left in the cabinet because i drank all my wine. i really can’t believe it. i guess working with quitting drinking and resisting that temptation has worked its way into other areas of my life. because as i said, i haven’t been tempted to check any of my social media. ive maybe spent two minutes on messenger.
and ya know, it’s been nice. yesterday between work, i did quite a bit of crafting and making shit. ive been wanting to create something for weeks now, so id get online and look for cool ideas instead of actually doing it. it feels good to actually do it instead of just looking. ive made some pretty cool samhain decorations, and finally set up my samhain altar. im proud of it, it’s one of the most beautiful ones ive created.
no social media, no alcohol, really shines a light onto how much time i waste. i havent written on my book in a couple of weeks. i started a painting a couple of weeks ago, half the canvas is still blank. i have wanted to update my etsy shop and add stuff to it, i just haven’t done it. i really want to sell some stuff because i desperately need money for a new tattoo. haha. i want one so bad. i have a few in mind.
oh! and another cool thing. im doing a free trial on ancestry and ive learned some pretty interesting things about my family. one, i found my grandfather. my moms dad died when she was just three years old. my granny had a very blurry picture of him above her bed, and we found one picture of him after she died. i found a picture of him and who i am assuming is his first wife, and their son. my mom knew she had a step brother, but not until she was a teenager i think. they got some kind of check, and it was split five ways, with his other child. i found the one picture id seen of him, and a few others. one of when he was a baby, a couple as what im assuming an early teenager. he would have been around 18 or 19 when his first child was born. he was born in 1925 i believe, and the baby 1944. that kinda blew my mind. also, my great great grand mother had her first child (my great grandmother) at age 12, her husband was 38! and on the other side, my 4th great grandfather left his wife. the census record i found has his age listed as 73, her age listed 38, and they were still having children, or recently had their last, i think the youngest child listed was 1 or 2.
so yeah, this post isn’t really inspiring and is all over the place. i get to witting and i don’t want to shop. perhaps i should put this motivation into working on my book.